Wednesday, August 09, 2006 HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO ALL!

I'm still considering whether to quit ELDDS or not.
I'm having a deal with Emilia and HwaiYi.
Urr HwaiYi's planning to quit too.
I'll see how it goes during the next training.
The new instructor sounds scary.
I don't wanna have nightmares just because of him.
I dislike STRICT and FIERCE teachers.
& I don't see the point why I still want to stay despite not having the passion anymore.
I'm worried now that Ms.Tang would be unhappy.
'Cause it isn't one, not two but THREE sec 1s who want to quit.
I can't imagine how I'm going to be when I speak to her personally.
Ohya, ms.natasha is in-charge of ELDDS now.
I can speak to her. But I'll still left ms.tang know, and that's a duh.
I'm really sorry miss.tang.
I don't know what CCA I would join after ELDDS.
shaotao said there's simply nothing that suits me except ELDDS.
Maybe I'd be a librarian? Or photocopy?
But I suck at that.
So I'm at a loss now too.
Hope next training turns out smoothly.
I'm not negative.
I am just wanting to do what I want,
and it's to quit ELDDS if I've no more passion and interest in it.

It's like I only look forward to trainings when we're performing.
I don't like the other parts of ELDDS.
I dread ELDDS trainings. & I'm not lying.
I skipped training 4 times only, out of which 2 times were because of SHOWTIME.
I LIKE SHOWTIME. I LIKE ELDDS TOO.
But I just can't understand why the interest and enthusiasm aren't on my heart.
I can't enjoy ELDDS whole-heartedly like this.
So I think it's still the best I quit.
Perhaps I'l gonna be CCA-less after this.
I'm not sure.
Not everything is beyond my control, though I make all the decisions.

Ok I think I shall stop I don't know what I'm talking about now.
BYE. Reply to this post emilia, at my tagboard.
Tell me your suggestions. Are you at a loss now too?
THANKS ALOT!

I find no reason to cheer myself up now.
Am I negative now? UNSURE - ----